Life has been made out to be about the present, Nothing else. Whether or not you are happy in that moment and none other. I think the problem with people today is that they worry to much about whether or not they are always the happiest they can ever be. They worry to the point that it ruins the moments that they are truley happy and the moments that are unforgettable, or atleast supposed to be. Not even just happy though, They manage to ruin the moments that are actually supposed to mean something, whether those moments are happy or sad. Those moments that are supposed to mean something are so over shadowed by the effort that is being put into every moment people experiece.
What I have learned so far in my life is to never try to be happy. Just let everything happen as it is. Whatever happens, happens. Theres nothing I can do about it and if there is, then it is something to learn off of. Life is never supposed to be a contest of being happier than you were the day before. Life is simply about "the moments that take your breath away" regardless of good or bad.
Those moments are what mold and define you as a human being. For me those moments are skiing/snowboarding, My car accident, And when I learned what Love meant.
No matter what is going on in my life or what hardships i may be going through, I can always count on skiing/snowboarding. While on the mountain I am at peace with everything. I am able yo clear my mind and just be me. I find myself surrounded in tranquility while on the mountain. I would never clasify myself as a mountain junkie, I mean I went once last year and probably wont at all this year. But Just being there manages to make me almost forget about everything. I cut myself off from everything except for whomever I am with. The rest of the world doesn't matter, just what I am doing currenty.
My car accident was one of the biggest turning points in my life. I was on a ride with a friend that took all of 15 minutes. We were on our way back to his house when the accident occured. He was driving his car over the speed limit, which we both trusted because we drove this road the same way atleast one thousand times. We went to make the turn, hit a gravel driveway he lost control of the car and we hit a rock retaining wall at 75 mph on my side of the car. Only one airbag went off and the car ended up 250 down the road, missing 2 tires and was destroyed. I was told by the fire cheif on the scene that I shouldnt be walking if it were not for the airbag that went off. The only airbag in the car, the one by the "oh shit handle" or in regular terminology the passenger window. If that did not go off my head would be sticking out the broken window and based on the mark/dents down the passenger side, he said, my head would have most likely hit the rocks along with the car.
I don't think I slept for days after that moment, and even still it bothers me. But it has helped me live my life the way I am now. Taking everything in stride and not letting anything get to me. Things happen for a reason and you just have to be ready for what will come in the future.
Other than my breath physically being taken out of me, Love has mentally taken my breath. I have had girlfriends in the past, none of which I told that I loved them, simply on the fact(s) that I did not know what it meant and because I didn't know how to find out what it meant. My last girlfriend was the one to show me that. I had known her for all of 3 months when I asked her out finally. After that night it hit me like a freight train rolling at 100 mph (or like the car accident). She was it, she was unlike anyone else, unexplainable. Everything about her in every way, shape and form. There was no words that could describe what I felt for her then and still do. So right then and the days, months, years proceeding I learned what LOVE meant. We are no longer together, but even still he has managed to change the way I think and the way I feel towards others.
These experiences are those life defining moments that do truly take your breathe away physically and mentally. These are the moments that get completely overshadowed by the people taking as many breathes as they can and attempting make every breath that much more memorable than the last. These are the moments that will last forever and shift the ways of life as it is lived day by day.
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